Oh where to begin. First, I tried to type this post last night because I was bragging about the awesomeness of my new phone. Trenton & I got new Blackberrys on Sunday and I was super excited about having the internet on my phone and being able to blog. I spend about an hour trping a blog only to find out that I don't know how to get it to save. Isn't that wonderful! Anyway, I'm still excited about my phone b/c I feel a little bit more connected to the world with internet access. Unfortunately, it also means that my husband and I are spending more time on our phones now than we are actually speaking to each other. You know it's bad when he just text messages me from the couch to tell me he loves me. Can you say pathetic? Like I need one more reason to be a lazy bum?!?!
Second, I'm super excited for Christmas break. Not because I have my shopping, wrapping, baking, cooking, or cleaning done. But because I will get to spend some much needed time with my husband. I think he really needs some quality time (minus the phones). He's been really off lately. I think it's just because things have finally slowed down enough at work that he's just now processing everything that happened in October. I think he's been under a lot of pressure from certain outside forces that is really putting stress on him. And I hate that. He wants so bad to make everyone happy and when others purposefully say and do hurtful things, it just breaks my heart. I guess it's like they say though, sometimes those closest to you are the ones that can hurt you the most. All either one of us has needed the past few months is understanding and support. Yet he's expected to be the one to mend fences and make things right. I just wish for once, his feelings got put first. I'm probably a little biased though. I tend to be very protective of him...I can't imagine how I'll actually be when I have kids.
Third, I was so excited to see my neice, Angie, last week. She lives in Wyoming, but drove back for Uncle Gary's visitation and funeral. I hate the reason she was here, but I do miss her so much. She's only a year older than me so growing up we were more like sisters. I wish she could have stayed longer. I am going to miss Uncle Gary more than I will ever really be able to accept. I know he's in a better place now, but he has played such an important role in so many of my childhood and adult memories, that his death has left a gaping hole in my life. He's the one that bought me a Santa Claus that sings "We wish you a merry Christmas" when you pushed the nose when I was little. I'm sure he bought it mostly to annoy my dad, but that thing still hangs outside the door at my parents house. He bought me my first drink on my 21st. He taught me how to saddle and bridle a horse. He kept my horses for me when I went to college and didn't have a place for them and never asked for anything in return. He was a dancing fool. He taught me to two-step(not that I'm very good at it) He was a wonderful caring man. He raised two sons that were not his my blood or marriage, only by choice. He was a fun loving spirit and I will miss him dearly.
Fourth, I think that's it. Lerin is back from California this week so I'd like to get over to visit her more this week. We have our first official Christmas with that side on Saturday. Guess that means I should finish shopping, huh? I hope the weather holds out tomorrow and Friday so the kids will get to have their Christmas parties and programs!:)
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